i hate birthdays. you know why? i hate seeing people celebrating their birthdays. seeing their happy faces make me sick. it has been 6 years that nobody celebrate my birthdays. no presents. no party. no life. every year, hoping for a celebration. but yet. every year seeing my parents reach home, play computer or sleep. feeling like wanting to kill myself. Yes i attend to certain people birthdays. and putting a fake smile. seeing them opening presents. haiyz. i dunnoe why.